When Shamima wrote this she was feeling utter despair and hopelessness…like nothing could save her. At the time it felt like her mind was just totally betraying her, and more powerful than reality.
When Holly painted this she was in a similar place. She wanted to show the turbulence and chaos of the inner monologue, the weight of the world’s ever-shifting expectations..how we are all at sea. What is Hope and why can’t I find it? Am I alone? She is trying to explore the conflict in Sentience: how all of us are both entirely empty and overwhelmingly full.